moving again…

after three or so years, stef is moving her blog again, hopefully to a permanent home in www.stepiphanies.com. wordpress has been a great host all these years.
i’ll see you guys on the other side.

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taking my shoes off

Earth’s crammed with heaven
And every common bush afire with God;
But only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sits around it and plucks blackberries.
(Elizabeth Barrett Browning)
When this year began, I prayed to God that I would know Him, be more intimate with Him, and to make me pursue and experience Him more than I’ve [...]

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hello?

There is so much silence between the words,
you say. You say, The sensed absence
of God and the sensed presence
amount to much the same thing,
only in reverse.
“In the Secular Night” by Margaret Atwood

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Hi, how are you?

I find it funny when I ask people, “How are you?” I don’t usually expect a longer answer than, “I’m good!” or a variation of that, and vice versa. Because who has time to spare to listen to somebody recount everything that has happened since you last saw each other? Whenever I get asked the [...]

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TRUTH THURSDAY: My Body is Holding Back…

my body is holding back little bits of myself
an hour or two of my time
a few beats of the sunset over the trees

a secret tucked away in the gaps of my memory
a few words unsaid
a giggle, a chuckle, a snort,
tears before sleeping
my body is holding back
feats of strength i didn’t know i have
weaknesses i ignore
fear, [...]

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TRUTH THURSDAY: My Body is Holding Onto…

My Body is Holding Onto…
these.
hugs, the tight, never-let-me-go ones that can make everything feel all right and safe and better. the hugs where i let go of all of my worries and just be in the moment, when everything fits. when two heartbeats keep in time and each other’s breath rise and falls in sweet [...]

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i am alive!

ok. so i may not look like this anymore… (lost a little weight! yey!)– one of the great things of being stuck in the hospital. har har. but this is not to impugn on cardinal santos’ hospital food– the meals were surprisingly good, too bad mom can’t say the same about their canteen. but well, [...]

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if you can’t see me, it’s only fair that i can’t see you.

can see me? can you hear me?
no. i suppose not.
(this is stef invisible.)

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can you write about yourself in the third person?

one of the questions i really had a hard time answering in the essay portion of my application is “Describe your personality.” while i have been writing about myself all this time on the blog, it was still difficult to actually write and identify my personality. i mean, i haven’t really thought about my personality, [...]

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four years before

growing times

freedom is just five steps away
but i am holding a dripping brush on my hand
and my words, just waiting to dry,
are between me in my corner
and the open door.
trouble is
i don’t want paint on my shoes
nor tracks on the floor.
(April 14, 2004)

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