here at the year’s end

i got my marching orders tonight
forward face, onward march!
and leave all baggages behind
eyes on the goal, the prize!
we travel light this year.

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caffeine crashing at four in the morning

Bite your tongue
Deep breaths
Count to ten
Nod your head
(sniff sniff) (Imogen Heap, “Just for Now”)

just for now, let me wallow in those memories i swore i had left behind.
just for now i’ll bury my nose in yesterday’s scent
just for now i’ll forget to be sensitive, sensible, commonsensical
just for now let me stomp my [...]

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you make all things new

when the world has fallen out from under me
I’ll be found in You, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I’ll be found in You
You make all things new.
(Brooke Fraser, “Shadowfeet”)

i can’t wait for the New Year– to shed these days of 2007 and finally [...]

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Belated Merry Christmas from Me and my Crazy Family

this e-card was designed by my sister, neena– she’s the one who’s holding the leaf like a loaded weapon. marti, my baby bro is the one with crazy eyes, sherie looks the most sane at the moment. my mom and my dad look really happy and sweet– just like in real life. jorem looks sleepy [...]

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for all the men in my life

My dear brothers,
I know Who created you, that’s why I expect so much from you guys.
_________

When God wants to drill a man, and thrill a man, and skill a man
when God wants to mold a man to play the noblest part
when He yearns with all His heart to create a great and so bold a [...]

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bah. humbug.

This post was supposed to be about me not liking what i become whenever Christmas season rolls around.
was supposed to whine about the traffic jams, panic-buying mobs, the rise of criminal activity and small time extortion.
supposed to make fun of my bah-humbuggery and say something witty or funny or just meh.
to ask where did all [...]

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things i have to do apart from work

1. forgive. everyday i’m reminded that it’s not a one time thing. every time a memory knife twists inside me, i have to take a deep breath and forgive all over again. him, her, them. myself. 

2. get out of my head.
3. write something more than this.
4. go for a long drive.

5. listen. to actually [...]

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Do you smell like Jesus?

while i’m still sitting on my blog posts, i’m gonna share with you one of the nearly daily emails i get from the best friend in San Diego– Matt Amargo. he send us email devotionals that we all think should be compiled for a book, and i like this one particularly because he talked about [...]

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deliver me from procrastination

laziness almost finished
projects
almost done
as usual
an hour and a half
before checking out
time enough
for a couple hundred
words
and finish
this scene
and all
i have
are incomplete
sentences
and tomorrow.

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The Best April Fools Day Lesson Ever

I know this entry is kinda long. but bear with me and read it through.
(an excerpt from Love, by Jerry Spinelli)
APRIL 1
I had promised Dootsie I would take her to Bemus Park today. At the first corner we came to, Dootsie said, “I wanna wear them.” She was pointing at my earrings, the little silver [...]

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