plans are made to be broken: story of my life

i guess this is how i am made. i love making plans. i HAVE to make plans, or else, i can’t move. i can’t get out of the house without a destination in my mind, even if it is a vague one. and i always have to know what i’ll be doing when i get to that said location.

funny thing is, my plans are always broken. they change along the way by circumstances that i can’t control or just don’t think it’s worth the effort to control. these changes in turns welcome, slightly frustrating, exasperating and expected. it’s always a pleasant surprise whenever the plans push through, and everything in my to-do-list is accomplished.

Take yesterday, for example. The two set appointments of the day was an interview at Eastwood with a former beauty queen turned TV host at 10 a.m., then go to my friend’s fiance’s memorial service at 6 p.m. at Manila Memorial. I planned to visit the dressmaker afterwards for my maid-of-honor dress, and then go be the Tishpy and go swimming with Rheea and Rainey in Merville. But of course, all of those well-made plans were tossed out of the window. So new plans were in order.*

i always ask God, whenever plans and appointments get cancelled at the last minute,
“why did i have to go here, if there is nothing for me here?!”
“did you want me to miss something somewhere else that’s why you brought me here?”
“what do you want me to do here?”
“is there a lesson in here somewhere? because that’s P500 worth of gas for a cancelled appointment.”

hmm. still no concrete answer, but from past experiences, there’s always something to learn  and benefit from everything, all i have to do is wait for it.

a verse comes to mind every time my plans go awry, Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the will of the Lord that prevails. (Proverbs 19:21). He knows what’s best, so i’ll trust in Him. i’ll still make plans, of course. that’s how i’m built. but i’ll hang on to them loosely, for whenever God has something better in mind.

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*a brief description of my THEY ARE NICE, BUT PLANS ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN DAY

I don’t usually expect interviews to be cancelled at the last minute, but this one did– just the second before i pulled into the parking lot. really infuriating considering i had driven through cavite traffic and up C-5, and gas prices are getting higher and higher, and i wasn’t feeling all that well that morning. but i kept my cool, made new plans. breakfast, dressmaker, maybe a movie, swimming, then wake. so drove to my old alma mater–since i was in QC already– for breakfast. but that didn’t happen. instead, i  got a new copy of my clearance and picked up my diploma and some college scholar certs–finally! then janine texted, she needs me to look over the final layout of 24/7, so there goes swimming. changed plans again, i’ll just go straight to sucat after the magazine, visit the old high school then go to the wake (since it’s right across Manila Memorial). then joshua texts about band practice in cubao for the concert on the 15th– very important since it’s hard to get people together as it is– so no more ICA and later on, we didn’t even make it to the wake because we ended late already.

so there.