i need to stop caring for a while. find that switch i used to use so often and so well.
there are just so many things that i couldn’t control, but have to. i need to get a grip. i need to keep my heart from sinking. i need my mind focused on churning the words out for my article on Toni Leviste.
it’s not even like i’m short on things to write about. the interview took over an hour, and it’s all recorded in my trusty microcassette recorder. but then again, how to start? how to put them together for a story that people would actually want to read? something that would be relevant and likeable.
too much creativity and self-editing is as bad as no creativity at all. but then again, if i didn’t know that i am capable of better writing than this, then i would just write whatever and stop expecting so much out of myself, since i was never really good at this at all. what i need is to clear my head. even the corners of my eyes are blurring.
my mind is like the streets tonight– dark, empty, and covered in smog.
i just wrote on my blog that you’re a good writer. hey, believe in yourself! you’re good.
what is bothering you? life begins after a troubling experience girl. What is important is how you navigate your dark, empty, smoggy mind.
For others its a wild ride that they eventually regret. For some, its pouring out thoughts to random people that are ready to listen.
No worries girl. Cheers